This content was created on the second of January 2026. I've decided to journal about my life now, my lived experiences, claim back my identity. Because for years now all I've been doing is floating. 2025 was a win, but it was all done on auto pilot. I was in my mind most of the time, stuck between the past, present and future, not sure which one to live in. People don't talk about what comes next after you've used up your strength to the point where all you have left are fumes. Everything keeping you steady suddenly runs out and then you're left in limbo, surviving yes but never truly living. You still get things done, still get called excellent but only you know what the voices say about you not yet living up to your potential. To understand where it all went wrong, first you need to go back to the beginning or rather the end, the time in your life when the camel's back broke. Then retrace your steps, see how it influenced your choices, your habit...
©2022 by Idowu Taiwo Deborah. *Her Mind's Scars* Brought to you by the Christian Writers and Readers Club. ****** This woman smiled and she looked beautiful while doing it. She ate and she looked content while doing it. She cared for others and she looked genuine while doing it. She was so dissociated in thought that for seven years her mind that was part in three had no idea that the life was slowly leaving her eyes. This woman was stuck in time. Stuck in 2015 where her mother died. It was like her brain automatically went to survival mode. The brain was so intelligent that it allowed her retain her usual 'light' but unknowns to her, she was already disconnected. How can one think they were alive while already dying? How can one still be living after continuously drowning? The brain kept her body alive but everything that used to make her happy slowly ceased. And because her mother who died amidst wolves called 'in-laws' was the only cover she had, slowly she fou...